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2006-04-13T17:12:00.000-07:00

hehes. gort a new dear dear. jiayuan =) 10/04/06. muackies. see our blog lohs. http://jiayuan-sharon.blogspot.com =D miss him miss him miss him.

2006-04-09T08:50:00.000-07:00

hehes. hahas. so happie today. went tuh zoo wit korkor =) then take alot of photo lers. at first is e bird. scare me ler. kor kor la. ask him take he keep ask me move closer. hai wo so scared. then after that go other place see animal. e seal so cute ler. i also wan one at home ^^ so clever n obidient. but very greedy. eat non-stop de. hahas. then styl gort see cow. e cow very er xin ler. i wan take photo for e cow when they eating. they got 1 suddenly xiaobian. wau lan. lyk tap water lyk that ler. haha. gort e pic =) hehes. then i got touch e sheep also. got 2 small small de. styl gort one black black de. so nice ler. thenalso got 2 lazy pig. so far. so take e photo not nice. delete le. sobs =( then also got small chick. hahas. then guinie pig. i got carry also. so close tuh me. got one white donkey or house. known as an "ass" hahas. i wan take photo. then very near him. his nose cum make my leg. then me n kor do very stoopid action. styl got e cutest penguin! i do wad he also do wad. then e head damn funni. hai wo xiao dao koo. lols.e crocodile damn damn long ler. so terrible. omg. e peacock so nice. got open tile de. i also got e pic hehe. then on e way back, we see photo. then e peacock walking towards us. then korkor shout. hai wo xia dao also. hahas. styl gort alot of things la. got camel. then also got so many type of diff tigers. all so nice. styl got hippo. bt no battery take photo. sobs. wanna take fer amirah de. so worth going today. thanks kor. muackies. =)

2006-04-07T10:09:00.000-07:00

hais. wad m i doing? im reallie waiting for him lers. tynk he also donno. sobs. also cannot tel him. wish nornor n jul jul happie forever =) hee. sadsadsadsadsad. cry tyl siao.. hais.

2006-03-30T22:53:00.000-08:00

lols. updating again le wors. hmm. nowadays very tired. styl gort volleyball training. start from basic. so sucks. here pain ther cramp. lols. sprain my ankle ytd. when training's gona finish. lol. stoopid me. ytd got physic n math test. donno wil pass not. today sit for geography test. also donno wil pass anot. but nvr studied much ytd. so bleb bleb bleb lohs. hmmm. lata going fushan wit doggie. now go slp awhile first. nyte nytes.

2006-03-29T06:06:00.000-08:00

wahs.. so long nvr update le. lols. hmm. hais. nowadays mood weird weird de. tml got emaths n physics test. haiyos. haben study. sobs. i donno if i like him ler.. wad tuh do??!! him or him? aiya. heck care le la. wait lohs. styl got so many things to do. n my volleyball. hahas. suprise ler.. my volleyball. i wil try my best tuh play on that day tuh go in de. thanks for doggie suport!! bested friends. hope she will b happi everiday. n my kor kor jiayuan. n that gonggong eric n nornor, his brother, norman. hahas. thats all bahs. take care friends. =)

2006-03-24T06:33:00.000-08:00

arr.. damn tired. tuday went tuh fushan play bb again. lols. thenn 9 plus go 339. play 3on3. lose. =X sians. nvm la. haha. i too short le. hmm. jus wanna say tuh kuai. i realli not wugui. i met doggie on bus. believe it or not. don so sad la. wad happen? lols. i also donno. today go jiayuan house wit dog watch final destination 2. so er xin. watch half, me n dog fall slp. then jiayuan ask us go slp lo. then we slp tyl 5 plus go fushan le lohs. hmm. been wit doggie. haha. fun =) bestest friends. hmm amirah everyday study. siao. lol. haha. thats all bahs. nytes.

2006-03-21T22:50:00.000-08:00

so tired!! jus cam back from skool. going study soon le. hais. so mani things tuh do ler. no tyme play bb liao. mayb friday? hahas. see how la. got tyme then go. hees. mus pia my physic, chem, dnt and cme. omg. donno how tuh finish. sian. tml starting training for volleyball liao. lost my shoe n keen pads all that. donno wad tuh do lers. today hp got confiscate by mrs chong. then my face so black. al cos of choon boon. wan save number. then kana caught. lols. then he so scared i cry ler. then go pleadge teacher. then giv back. hahas. then lata also miting him go study. he my dear dear lers. can bully de. =) styl gort hui aun. also my dear dear. lols. share share de. lols. skool quite fun but damn tired. hehe. donno can tahan tyl when. lols. miss basketballing. haha. take cares

2006-03-18T18:00:00.000-08:00

bleb bleb bleb. lols. start from where lers. return bike that day bahs. that day go return bike tuh dakuai. then he saw us like very shocked. see his espression, we shouldnt go in actually. i did ask doggie tuh inform dakuai that we going there first. then she say nvm de. then reach there i tot put e bike then go liao. then she use e key open e door. then i say don open, lata he not in. then she say nvm de. then open lohs. we walk in n sit on e floor. then donno why. i don lyk the expression they gave. so i keep ask doggie tuh go. there got jiayuan, david, neidi n phylis. then david they all going out ma. then i say we also go liao. then dog don wan. donno la. then saw that attitude by sumone. also dulan. then we go cwp. then hanming mit us. go long john eat. then go buy cloths. we choose so long sia. also giv alot of comments. so hanming bought 2 or 3 bahs. i brought 2. then dog buy e hand accesories. 1 for $5. she bought one for me also. =) hehe. then after that go 339. no people sia. then we sit there awhile then go 338. saw haiming there. then sit down chat chat. until 10 then go home. then ytd go cwp eat long john again. then mit hanming n kampong. then go woodland point see shirt cos dakuai say there de shirt NICE. then go there see n eat. we only drink e bamboo drink. hanming treat de. cos all no money.

2006-03-14T06:58:00.000-08:00

ehs. this few days keep going fushan bahs. tuday went watching dorm. not nice de. don watch. eu wil regret de. =P ask dog help me do my dnt. hahas. i clever hohs. then tml going sentosa!! yea! hahas. dono wil be fun nort.hehe. all volleyball de of cos. hais. sians. amirah got trouble she also don wan say. then her hp kana confiscated. so diff tuh contact her. cos she din even giv a call or msg. today wanna call her go watch movie. then cant find her. wan her go fushan play bb also cant find her. we are sistas ler. she got trouble also don wan tell us. how we gonna help her. we 3 sistas now lyk 2 lydat nia. den dog go out ton for 3 days. i styl nid fock out tyme to sneak out. cos i scared she sian. at first is amirah say wan say go chalet. last min then say cannot. so we all go pei dog lohs. if not she also sian. one day must find amirah cum out talk talk liao. nvr mean tuh say her de. no offence =X kk? take care.

2006-03-10T23:43:00.000-08:00

hais. so long nvr blog le. recently i also donno wad happen la. sians. tynk say wrong things at e wrong tyme le bahs. since lydat le, then get it stright ba. don wanna waste tyme le =) our volleyball match ended le. we are out of nationals. hais. fought so hard yet we styl lose tuh cedar. nvr mind la. our lots not gud also. hmm. my exams. hais. fail 2. eng n A maths. sians. fail my eng. die liao. hmmm. i very sad also ler. bt lyk dono how tuh say also. cant express out also. don dare cry also. eat shit la. hais. lata miting e pig then at nyte then go find dogie lohs. donno wad happen tuh amirah also. tynk her mum don let her go out. but she now at gina house? donno. i ask her go mit dogie then she nvr reply me. then dogie ask her then she don wan. weird? lols. nvm. mayb she got scolded by her mum also. realli feel lyk slacking le. giv up le. =( tuday saw hong bao n ting. then chat. then walk home saw daddi. then sit down chat chat also. they also nvr play basketball le. lols. slacking at home. so long nvr be with they all le ler. lyk separate from them le. should be bahs. but styl in contact la. lyk mc, bao, daddi they al lohs. donno whre's my lyfe gonna turn tuh also. hais. wad should i do now......

2006-03-03T08:01:00.000-08:00

finally!! im back from camp. sho black now. hahas. 1st day our group go do high elements. omg. i walk on e log damn horrible lohs. keep shouting non-stop. then i starting tuh walk le i saw e fat guy climbing up. then i walk so long. finally walk finish le, he styl climbing. laugh tyl i nearly fall down. hahas. his hand cramp. then finish e high elements we go eat dinner. sit with a bunch of girls. then eat finish le me n fann damn sians. then we stay outside e canteen. i say " ar bo we go scare ppl la?" then i jus say finish she go scare one malay guy that walk past us. he so shock ler. hahas. then e 3rd guy we scare, we eating water melon ma. then fann scare him de shi hou, spill on his shirt ler. wao lao. damn er xin ler. hahas. he styl wait for us tuh laugh finish first. lol. then second day go kayaking!! hahas. when learning capsize, i hit my head ler. idiot. then we go far far kaya wit many instructors n teammates. then got play game can play water. then e instructor splash me n kahmei ler. cos kahmei my partner mahs. then kahmei go pull his boat. i splash. when kahmei splash, i pull. then we accidentally capsize ler. wad e.. hahas. but damn funni ler. after that go bath then go cycle all e way tuh east coast ler. so tired. then mus cycle back. i cycle tyl buah tahan then i walk. e handsom ron instructor help me take my bike. hahas. he very cool de. hees. then at nytes, me, kahmei, fann n gina guess areoplane. they guess singapore airline, then i cannot guess that one. then i guess not singapore airline. lol. then i win ler. then today they go pushup for me infront of everybody ler. hahas. lol. when tuh fushan tuday. play basketball then go kuai house wit dogiie. go see my hams hams. big le. haha. then 9 go down fushan play bb again. play tyl 10 then walk home. reach home 10.45 liao. lols. damn tired. wan go slp le. nytes. =)

2006-02-28T07:05:00.000-08:00

i m going fer camp le =) hahas. tuday was a so pek cek day. went tuh phs instead of training. cos coach insist of us saying sorry. wao lao. then after go phs then know friday having match. nvr even prepare. jus becos of e one sorry. we miss 3 trainings. lol. wtf. wads e big deal? then go 338 wait for doggie n kuai. then kampong also got come. play bb awhile then saw hanming. lol. then go home. mit 9 wit amirah n juliana. then i take 4 baby hamster tuh dakuai. ask him feed. scared he lata then eat e hamster ler. hahas. then mi n doggie go find amirah, on e way saw xiangjie. he go wit us also. saw his dear at shing siong also. then saw e guo shao!! e weida if i not wrong. but nvr talk also. so wasted nvr get number. hahas. kidding. gotts go slp le. wan an my dear friends. =) miss me.

2006-02-26T06:29:00.000-08:00

tuday go eat=) so full. afternoon go buy slipper. run here n dere. den buy at 30plus. white colour de. 8 dollar nia. den go buy durian. damn stoopid. 5 inside nia. 9 dollar lers. i eat one nia. lol. kana cheat. lol. 3 dollar eat one seed. damn. very funni tuday. make amirah. she sord sord de. but today damn funni. donno why. love them so much. hees. nothing tuh say le. take care friend.

2006-02-25T07:46:00.000-08:00

ehs. tuday bake cake for fann! damn funni ler. i donno hw tuh wash bowl sia. den e spong drop inside e cake. arg. den cannot do. hahas. den go kfc mit fann they all. den celebrate at kfc. tio gan. lol. den go double court. kahmei n fann they all play basketball damn funni. buai dong. hahas. den all e while dere den ride bicycle wit juliana. den send amirah home. den me n dogie chat chat. till very late. lazy tuh write. next tyme den say. nytes.

2006-02-24T02:05:00.000-08:00

evibody don wan me liao!!!! doggie ask her at whre, she at friend house den don wan cum down. hippo say she mood swing. siao de. dakuai missing in action. jiayuan also bahs. lol. suddenly evione not here liao. today went tuh toapayoh sports hall take prise n see match. e xinmin no.5 very handsome. bt so sad, attacted le. sians. bt nvm la. haha. tiss few days got find other ppl liao. i fail my emaths!! fuk. sobs.

2006-02-23T05:02:00.000-08:00

lol. so long nvr blog le. having common test now. lol. tired. today went tuh dentist fer appointment. lol. got 8 injections in my mouth. OMG. e second one damn pain. i cry ler. buay tahan. cannot laugh. cannot eat. hais. so pain. dne went tuh double court. kana elbow by da kuai. lol. then go home le lohs. got my chem result le. 14half nia. overall wit my first test, got b4. 61 nia. sad ler. but my class alot of ppl fail. going camp soon le. 3 days 2 night. sure very fun de. hehes. thanks kahmei, huishan, lorene n xifang fer waiting for me =) erm. donno realli rmb wad i did last few days. jus nvr online cos very tired. hais. tml physics n dnt test. haven even start studying ytd. sians. donno wad tuh do. sure fail liao. think tml prize taking. miss lim nvr say. i also donno. tml then say bahs. my teeth very pain!! haiyo. i haben write my letter fer e volleyball thing. today run nafa wit kahmei. got b. lol. we best in class liao!! i lost so many books. die liao. hais. nothing tuh say le. nytes.

2006-02-19T06:41:00.000-08:00

lol. today went to chua chu kang le. wit mc n his friend(leon)? donno. n xiangjie. mc late half an hour. hai wo mus keep change e tyme wit kahmei. cos i exchange ez link card wit her. den forget change back. after mit her at admiralty, we went to cck eat. i eat e paper prata. so big ler. den mc friend cum. we go 400+ there. ppl house cut hair. we wait damn long lohs. wait 2 hour plus then they start cutting. summore got cut lyk din cut lydat. waste tyme ler. haiyos. den go back cck eat. den chat chat. den go mc house. jayda n xiangjie hugging here n dere. den me n mc slping lohs. he don wan gimme po jin, den i don wan gim him blanket. den slp for half an hour den go 338. there got match. watch den play awhile. 9 den go home. cant get those notes into my head. i m doom. hais.

2006-02-18T17:14:00.000-08:00

weees. two days nvr blog le. been tired n busy. fridat we play wit cchy. lols. win 2-0/ but second match was a close one. cos we were lagging behind. 18--23 lers. den jayda serve n got into e net. den become 18-24. den we catch up till we win lohs. hmmm. after that, went home n rest le. den ytd got training in e morning. damn tired n pek cek. i help them throw e ball, still mus throw stright stright nice nice high high. den e ball they hit, hit dao wo i also say nvr mind. sytll say i mus throw here more, throw there more. do die la! throw urself lohs. den throw so many balls, also no strengh to set liao. den coach die die also wan me set. summore mus from back court run infront n set. wao kao. tynk i realli superman aR? den went home make my hamster things. after that take my cloths to bath. but becos very hot den i lie on e bed n on e fan lohs. den i fall slp =X i was late one hour for studying lers. hahas. den i wake up n go bath den call them. they say they call me but my brother say i not at home. lols. den after studying, go play volleyball wit kahmei they all at double court. play till half, den i saw boon playing alone. den i go play with hime basketball. play one on one. i lose =( sobs. den got 2 ang mo wan play wit us 2 on 2. we also lose. hahas. one ang mo knee cap hit dao me, damn pain ler. den after that, me n boon play abc. he win liao styl gimme 5 chances ler. i styl lose. hais. den after that go play basketball wit da kuai. one on one. i tell him cannot jump. den juliana join in. den we play 2 on 1 lohs. but becos he is so big piece, we cant get e balls even if we jump. den i say he cannot go in e red box. stoopid. den we win lohs. den me, doggie, daddi, mclin n xiangjie go drink water n eat. i wait for juliana eat finish den go her house take cage. den boon follow us go up. den we come down lohs. wao. i take so many things. hahas. den they ask me don fall dowm =X think thats all le bahs. lata going chua chu kang wit mc, xiangjie n mc friends. lol. thats all bahs. tuesday playing wit xinmin. hope we win bahs. =)

2006-02-16T05:05:00.000-08:00

lol. today? damn hot lers. canno tahan. fail my A maths. sians. 18/40. arrrg. bo bian. im not talented. hais. after skool went for training lohs. very tiring ler. styl train till so late. den 7 plus den reach home. went home eat and study abit chemistry lohs. cos i miss too many lessons le. cant catch up le. tml playing wit cchy ler. lol. they won smb one set ler. surprising? hahas. tynk smb also slack la. donno wad tuh do. wont be playing basketball for this 2 weeks le bahs. nid tuh do alot of thingy. busy though. wad m i tynking lers? i also donno. i donno wad i wan la. n even i know, i wont get it anyway. tired le. don wan write le. tml den write =) nytes. muackies.

2006-02-15T06:09:00.000-08:00

hais. skool skool skool. na bei. knn. everyday also skool. how to relaX? the fuking teacher teach so fast, nobody wanna say until i shout. fuk up la. study so hard for wad. i don get anithing also. styl got volleyball. being a player is already a very difficult thing. i m styl a captain. i cant even make myself better, how m i suppose to lead e team. wit my stupid mood, i affects e whole team's moral. fuking du lan. training again tml. i cannot take it animore le. hais. i don wanna disappoint my mummy. she take care e 5 of us already not easy le. im e only one in express. should have study much more n harder. i really feel like giving up everything. i dono wad i m tyking. i don feel like talking, smiling n laughing. don don even feel like moving around. jus tynking n tynking. today in skool, du lan with that fan tong lao shi. idiot. den last 3 period dnt. cos of e 2 days i nvr go skool, i was so lack behind. i put e nails nvr put properly, den cut into my hand, den i stop doing le. den after skool went home n bath. mit amirah n dakuai go yishun ite cos dakuai wan register. den mit jiayuan there lohs. go pet shop see see. den mit doggie. eat tian ping. eat le go northpoint walk walk. bought saw dust wit lemon smell n a pink shirt. den take bus go back. slping all e way. den me, amirah n juliana go da kuai house. they go eat. den i sit there use comp. den fall slp. den they wake me up den go home lohs. sians. i wont be able tuh take it any longer. hais.

2006-02-14T07:19:00.000-08:00

lols. went skooling today. abit sians. keep slp in social studies class. cant catch up with my chemistry le. hais. den went for volleyball match with PHS. stoopid mood. we lost. but lost so awlfully. see le also pek cek. hais. realli cos of my mood? den we play 2-0 lohs. den went back tynk so long wads wrong wit e team. den went to eat wit amirah. i ask her go home first den i eat alone lohs. tynk so many things. den went home change cloths. my maid told me e hamster kana bite by e cat and bite e hams n run around lers. den i sayang him lohs. den my sis ask me touch him when i gim my own hasmter food. den kana bite ler. wao lao. 2 hole!!! OMG. stoopid. den went double court play basketball lohs. keep win de. nvr out ler. hahas. also nothing le la. tml having skool again. when dentist today. say i got 4 decay tooth. nid go for appointment on 23rd 3 oclock. sians lahs. haiyos. so many things tuh handle ler. aiya. donno wad i should do ler. happi valentine day. muackies!

2006-02-13T07:08:00.000-08:00

another skooling day. today abit sucks la. sians. went tuh skool. den slp in class. chinses teacher also don gib a damn to me. so i slp lohs. den got my math result. 24/40 nia. so many careless mistake. so sad. den went to library borrow bk with kahmei. den we mit janice and ying go watch movie lohs. watch fun wit dick n jane. lol. okay lahs. quite funni de. bt got abit sians la. den i walk home myself. den like got ppl following me. den i hide inside e cwp toilet. so scared. den walk home lohs. walk till half. i sit on e bench. tynking n tynking so many things. tynking of wad if its lyk this or lyk that. tynl of e consequences. den sit there for half an hour. hais. i lyk very guofen lers. den juliana took a big pig n a small pig tuh my house. lol. so big ler. that day go more than words cannot find. hahas. erm. dono how to say ler. hais. tml having skool again. so stress. so many things tuh study. having volleyball match tml again. wit PHS. jux now go double court. den play wit jiayuan. run n step on doggie n fall. den my leg bleed sia. so sucks!! lol. another lonely valentine again. nvr had a valentine wit e one i lvoe before. lol. happi valentine day tuh all. esp (bao n ting) (yuan n hua) (steph n alvin*hope so*) (elrin n xiang) (doggie n jie =] ) (jayda n xiang jie) (daddi*hong chuan* n sandy) cant tynk of any le. hapii valentine =)!!

2006-02-12T06:18:00.000-08:00

lol. today when to causeway walk walk wit dog, ball, dakuai n jiayuan. den went to take neoprints wit dog n ball. hahas. den go more than words SEE SEE. lol. hahas. when to give a name n brought 3 piggy small cups. den we keep play lohs. dog very power ler. beat people can non-stop de. her hand wont pain de ler. she so steady. den we 3 went tuh double court n slp. dog slp on my leg, i lie on ball shoulder. so comfortable. then they go my house eat dinner. cos all no money also. lol. hahas. den see hamster. den go double court le lohs. play basketball. i keep scold amirah sia. hahas. but i ask her she say she nvr angry lahs. got 1 kao bei kia, keep call juliana dog. he got no rights. hahas. den dakuai don let him drink water. hahas. they look like so ke lian ler. bt ok la. my neck styl very pain. i tynk i got my ans fer my valantine day le bahs. hope i wil not regret bahs. amirah funy ler. everyday pray fer love. actually i tynk today we go causeway is like to play de ler. laugh here n dere. lol. sians. schooling again tml. will be playing with PHS again on tuesday. hope wil score better bahs. bt donno my neck lydat can play not. hais. also nothing to say le bahs. take care =)

2006-02-11T08:35:00.000-08:00

my new bloggie. hahas. nwadays evryday also wit doggie n ball x2. play basketball lohs. also donno wad tuh do. my volleyball team win SMB ler. omg. so happie lers. i did my best le =) my neck got problem, elbow got problem. so many problems. lol. today jiayuan birthday. wish him a happi birthday. =] dono what i should do lers? hais. stooopid me. i half half got e ans le ler. haiyos. got so many questions tuh run thru. tynk i nid write on foolscape liao. juliana got wj le leR. styl tynk abit weird werid de. lyk suddenly de ler. den she buy so expensive e present fer him ler. hahas. e guy so xinfu. everyday got doggie woof woof beside him n bite him. love bite. hahas. n e ballball. praying fer love ler. who wan sacrifies fer her??! she wil gib eu her biggest hug. hahas. ytd eat pizza wit my team mates. den go double court play volleyball. damn funni n happy lohs. hope we can win xinmin too =) den we can get to e second le =X hais. whre's my feeling sia? sobs. =[

haha. so normal.

2005-09-06T13:19:00.000-07:00

haha. now quite happy with wad i have le. cos no more quarrel with my dear le. haha. cos i think he rite le. he like do his own way. i also like do my own way. our thinking is different. so give in better lo. den now i realise i m always the one not giving in to him in the past. cos after i give in now, i realise everything changes. i no longer so xiaoqi towards him le. also din check his things or wad. choose to trst him is better. jux hope he wont dui bu qi me can le. cos if he really did, my heart will break de. den he having N level ma. think he also quite stress ba. so don really wanna argue anything with him lo. hope he score good good ba. that day went to snow city with him. we 2 nia. cos nobody wan go ma. den we go la. den keep play lo. haha. very fun/ but he got flu sill company me go snow city, really very happy and thanks lot. we also go take neoprint also. hehe. keep it lo. ask gina to scan. den ytd go play basketball. very fun ar. train with them. den i see boon train with them also. happy for him la. cos he don seem sad le ma. hehe. den xiangjie quarrel with guoxiang. ah guo also very angry. den they like not willing to teach xiangjie le. but i believe iangjie can do it la. haha. hope things will get better. ,y results come out le. only got sciece fail. but my mum say still very lousy. den too bad lo. haha. k la. don write le. good luck for every1. muacls! miss eu dear!!

tired. so late sleep. =(

2005-08-26T05:31:00.000-07:00

hais. so long never update le. nowadays every day 1.30am den slp. six wake up le. still got for training and all that. not enough slp sia. haha. nowadays. i already try not to quarrel with boon le. not to get angry le. haha. let him do wad he wants ba. cannot tie him up de. he wil cannot tahan wan. i also know he give in alot to me. really thanks lots. jux pass our 100th day anniversary ytd. quite okae la. he having exams ma. so everyday also slp slp slp lo. but din blame him la. haha. nowadays everyday also play basketball sia. quite okae la. trying real hard to buck up my skills on it. hope can improve more faster lo. also nothing to write this few days lo. been with my volleyball teammates for quite some time le. quite happy la. hope they everyday also happy happy. and hope all of us can go same class next year la. but don think i can do it la. can go express also a problem le. hope i can make it la. but i admit i havent been studying hard lo. everyday also slp in class. teachewr also like give up me le. haha. no hope. but will try to study lo. hehe. thats all ba. hope everyone is happy!!

haiyo. cant get to slp.

2005-08-20T01:16:00.000-07:00

hais. cant get to sleep. so write another post lo. haha. thanks for tagging. dear friends. hmmm. now will try not to quarrel with boon so much ba. jus as guoxiang say. he cares alot about me. i hope so =). nowadays, everytime i wait for people, always tio ps. den i get very angry when i wait for somebody so long, yet he or she din turn up. hai. today also. i wait for gina and jogina 1 hour. in the end, they say they still doing. waste my time. den i go causeway with kahmei lo. den talk talk. walk walk. bought a piggy bank. haha. wan save money to buy wallet and things for boon lo. haha. den wat for boon come. den he company me walk home lo. his mother knows he got stead le ler. cos i send msg to his hp, den he din bring hp. den his mum go see. ohoh. haha. but hope nothing will happen la. den i reach home. boon call me. den i call him back. he earlier say go 338 ma. den he say he feel like slping. den i tell him i nothing to do. but nbm la. he tired ma. so he go slp lo. so i at home do nothing la. den he finally wake up le. den i go 338 wait for him lo. the moment he come, he ride his bike go 178. he say go check. den he go there play. i wait for him so long yet he walk away. so i ask sean they all play bb with me lo. den sean don wan play 1 on 1 with me. den jianhuang they all come ma. so i play with them lo. quite happy la. cos so long never play with them le. yuchang say my shooting getting lousier liao =(... haha. nbm la. wil try to improve lo. but i din quarrel with boon over that matter la. the 178 things. den i go talk to him. he like wan ans don wan ans liddat. so i sian diao lo. den i also don feel like talking liao lo. so sit there. then ying come find me chat chat lo. sian. hope ying and zam wont have anything happen lo. den play bb with zam. tired. haha. den go home lo. got scared by boon cos i walk walk. den he suddenly appear by my side. so i ask him go away la. den he like sad sad liddat. so i ask him go home earlier lo. hope he don mind. now den realise my words actually matters to him so much. so much that it went deeply into his heart. 2 days ago was our 3rd month la. 18th. haha. so fast 3 month le. hope can last as long as possible ba. hmmm. den now, my volleyball team getting better and better le. hehe. so happy. love the time we been together. haha. so funny. today chat with my mum. den ask wad age she think she will be when she had grandchildren. she say 40 plus ba. cos she now 36 le ma. my big sis 17 and my bro 16 le ma. den she say we 23 can married off liao. diao. haha. k la. say so much. don write le. miss eu my friends. and my baobei. wan an. muackies.

sad. =(

2005-08-17T18:09:00.000-07:00

hais. donno why. everytime i got xinshi. there's nobody i can talk to. only this blog. and i feel safe talking to this blog. bcos only people who cares about me would read my blog and wanna know wads happening around me. but i doubt so la. cos nobody would see my blog. so, i can write wad i feel ba. hais. today in skool, that fuking bitch carol, go slap jogina lo. den jogina slap her back. she slap jo back again. den jo slap her back again. den carol wanna slap jo, jo siam. den jo giv 1 more slap to carol. serve her right lo. donno why i so angry over this matter. mayb this whole volleyball team, is the only friends i have in skool ba. nowadays we 7 people always hang out together le. hmm. i realise sistax actually sux. jux friends, is enough. hais. feel so stress this ffew days, cos exam ma. den tml me and boon 3 months le. but jux now like quarrel with him again. den he don wan reply lo. i at causway wait for him, cos he say he got remedial. so i wait lo. i msg him, he din reply. i tot he using another number, so msg another number. he also din reply. den 4 plus liao he den reply. tell me he slping at home, so song. i so angry lo. he don even know. still can hehe haha. funny meh? den i say raining i cannot go home. den when i reach home liao, he den reply that i can go home liao, cos rain stop liao. of cos i know la. i don have eyes meh? need to wait for him to wake up den tell me that rainstop le meh? den he say he donno why i so bu shuang. say don wan talk to me liao, if not we quarrel again. he say he going back sleep. din even ask if i got caught in the rain. din even ask anything and tell me he wanna go slp again. of cos i bu shuang la. wait for him so long. somemore go causeway with those friends. all look sian sian. i also need to cheer them up. he don wan talk to me in case quarell again. den don ever talk to me la. all he knows is sleep sleep sleep. sleep is very common. i know he everyday also tired. everyday also wan slp. den wad about me? he reach home liao donno how to say isit? make me wait so long. slp slp slp. he don care. guoxiang say he care alot abt me. he himself also say he care alot abt me, but only donno how to show. is this the way of caring? hais. i don feel it at all. not a single bit. i have never done so much and tolerate some1 so much. he knows how i feel? he knows wad i wan? i really very sad. very sad. wad can i do? everyday also does the same thing again and again. why cant he jux sacrifies abit!!?? i m getting crazy. wad should i do? he's having prelim tml also. i hope he can do well. really don wish to affect him. but, he know i bushuang, why wont he jux ask about me. at least, this way, i know he still cares about me. i got no wan to talk my things to. hongbao everyday also go lan. wenkun, no chance. mclin, everyday play maple or go lan. wenting. no need say. she don even wanna talk to me. guoxiang, he's an idiot. everyday also know how to laugh at people nia. hais. hais. hais. he don understand me. i don understand him. i believe the word 'forever'. i wanna it to happen to us. but can i? can eu? eu don even believe.. i don think i should have believe it too. i think, i love eu too much..

stupid. stupid. stupid.

2005-08-12T23:20:00.000-07:00

hais. how stupid am i to get that idiot sore eyes. been in pain for so many days. hais. don have the mood to write post today. m i really that guofen? should i tell him wad i feel? but, if i tell him how i feel, i think i might be a little guo fen. but don tell him, he don understand wad i trying to say. watched charlie and the chocolate factory today. that miss orange wanted us to watch for the sake of literature. and we really did. lols. me, fann, kahmei, hong bao and gina lo. okae la that show. hmm. jux now wanna take the volleyball down. cos i feel its a kinda waste to put it up there. i donno why i jux wanna take that down. den ask xiangjie can throw his slipper anot. den he say can. i ask him throw himself. he say if he throw himself, stuck he wont heart pain. thats mean he already prepare to have the slipper stuck up there. i tot the slipper meant nothing to him. so i throw lo. i know boon got keep ask me don throw. but i insists la. den stuck on the tree lo. den i think i heard sumthing he shouted from upstairs infront of he neightbours staying at 338 lo. i very paiseh lo. like ppl close us, he liddat shout, i don mind la. but he should have think wad i feel lo. suan liao. den stuck there he angy la. he don wan talk so i don want talk lo. den i go play bb lo. den he there keeo say sumthing like i stubborn to gx, sean they all lo. at first i ask sean. he don wanna tell me. but i really wan cry le, den he tell me lo. i ask him xiangjie angry huhx? then he say no. den i ask boon angry? he say mayb lo. den i keep insist to know wad he angry abt. den i more angry lo. mayb its my fault to throw xiangjie's slipper up, but throw already wad. i get it down for him la. boon liddat also wan angry lo. everytime i angry, i jux keep it to myself lo. i smile at him wan lo. today he wan company his friends, so i company my friends lo. den ask him wan watch movie not, he don wan. everytime go play pool. he wan privacy. he wants freedom. i had given him. i donno wad else he wants me to do. i had never done so much for a guy. but cant he jux sacrifies abit? he sian den don wan. i am his stead, company also cannot? i wanna play cards, den not enough ppl. ask him play, he don wan. ask him watch movie, he don wan. wad he wantS? wad he wants is jux play pool and basketball. thats all. but had he thought wad i wan? but, i don think i can have anything. seriously, i am really very happy being with him. but wad makes us quarrel? how should i give in? give in in wad? attitude? although my attitude sucks, but i have my own reasons. not everytime sorry can le lo. i always say nbm cos i don wanna quarrel with him de lo. he don wan, i force he also not happy. den, there's nothing i could do anymore. hais. i really miss him so much. today's wenkun birthday. actually wanna wish her happy birthday. but her mum there. so when she wanna play, i walk away lo.i really very sad abt her. so sad that i lost that friend. cant even get close to her. hais. happy birthday wenkun =)

``sentosa___

2005-08-06T10:47:00.000-07:00

haha. today so fun. go sentosa with fann, kahmei, amirah, jogina, dear, hongbao, guoxiang, mclin and xiangjie. we at first play volleyball. 5 on 5. girls VS boys. den we win. 23-25. haha. very fun sia. cos the boys cheat themselves den keep say we cheat. they den cheap lo. den play finish liao. we sit down. sit down also play. lols. den me and fann go down water there. sian ma. den they push me down lo. at the end also everybody down la. stupid. i m the only 1 who gets to hit guoxiang head so many times ler. haha. den we play lao ying zhuo xiao ji again. fun la. den after that play boys VS girls using ball to hit each other head ler. pain ar. den play mani things la. keep dive into the water. who din dive den who lose. den so fun. den we go float there play. stupid de la. den go bath. everybody also sunburn. jux that me and kahmei more jialet nia. haha. den feel very hot lo. den go back alameen eat jux now lo. so hungry. hahas. thats all ba. :)

haix. sad sad.

2005-08-02T23:19:00.000-07:00

hais. donno wad happen. don feel happy at all this few days. today volleyball training, so hot. den they still insits to train outdoor. jux feel like dying. so tired and weak. hais. thiw few days keep quarrel with boon. quarrel le, okae liao. den quarrel again. m i irritating? perhaps to some people ba. i still cant gain the trust in him which i have tried. wad should i do? he's sad. sad abt him life. his friends. his families. but i am so useless. i cant do any help to him yet make him feel even more worse and sad. but who could teach me wad to do? do wad to help him? i cant even smile to him today. when i was about to tell him wad i feel. i felt so scared. scared that his reply will shock me again. shock me wiht my tears rowing down my face. i think i scared to lose him. but, i also think he changed le. changed to another guy tat wasnt wad he used to be. i think i m too much le. he should have his privacy. but wad i really think was privacy wasnt so important to me. but neither did i know that it matters to him so much. i told him i don have a sense of security is bcos of wad he's doing. i scared we 2 will become cold like today. even left only the 2 of us there, we still cant talk it thru. its either i tell him, he nothing to say. or he ask me, i don ans. its not like the past. during the past, he wont even quarrel with me over those things. mayb he's not feeling very well at all. but me too. i don feel well at all. my heart aches so muh. so much that the laughter in my face don appear. i am tired. wad should i do? can anybody tell me? tel me how can i make him happier..

sian. tired.

2005-07-29T19:56:00.000-07:00

haix. nowadays donno wad happen. seems to quarrel with my team mates. actually i do cherish my friendship with them, if not, i wont be angry. but sumtimes, they only thinks abt themselves. 2 days ago quarrel with jayda. at first we sit together eat, den we tALk about later volleyball de things la. den jayda say she no need to play match cos last training coach din ask her do anithing. den i say coach got ask her pick ball. so we all kidding kidding say later she pick ball can liao. den she say she don wan la. den we ask her do scorer or refree lo. den she say she donno how to keep score sia. stupid reasons lo. den we shoot her back: "eu donno how to keep score aR? small kids also know lo" den she bwg. den say she don have wistle. den gina say bookshop got sell. $0.90 nia. den jayda ask gina to giv her money buy ma. den fann suddenly"wow!" meaning is like $0.90 also mus "gei giao" la. den jayda scold her back:"u wan me be refree still wan me use my own money to buy the wistle ar?" den fann pek cek den say:"den u go home la! go home la!" liddat jayda angry liao lo. den jayda, gina and amirah go toilet la. i know jayda wan gossip liao. so me, fann and kahmei purposely stand outside the toilet listen wad they say la. then jayda only say me la. say wad i always say bad things of his bf. pls lo. i din say behind her back lo. somemore is for her own good de lo. she don appreciate still wan quarrel with me over that shortie. fuck lo. den say till i like ps they all liddat. say that time got simin they all de shi hou, den i don go together with them. den now don have simin den go with they all. she fucking idiot cb lo. knn. if we don go with her, she will have friends meh? actually she doesnt have a true friend at all lo. when she say sumthing abt us in the toilet, i juz feel like going in and scold her and tell her gossip also don gossip so loud, in case got ppl beat her up den no one help her lo. last time so many ah lian wan find her problem because she FLIRT. i still stand by her side lo. den wad she do? she always think that we always make things difficult for her lo. actually no lo. is she herself wan to act so pity. who cares? lols. den everyday also say she sick. like sick 1 year non-stop lo. everytime don wan come training. when i tell her liddat cannot go in main 12. den she say don go don go la. wad she takes volleyball for? fun fun den come. not fun den don come. during match, getting scolded is common lo. i scold u not bcos i am the assitant captain or wad lo. i jux wanna the team play well lo. who don get scold? being scolded is a kinda improving lo. who havent been scolded before? i know u everyday also get scold by ur mother. but u don have to bring the feelings into the court lo. i don give a damn to it. somoemore u have become more and more petty lo. xiao qi lo. if u don like us kidding with u, den don stick with us lo. we been together shooting each other and u know de lo. i don laugh, u all kaobei. i laugh, u all also kaobei. den wad u all expect me to do? i don feel good at all lo. den mr chee keep giving me pressure. say wad i am a sports leader. should do wad my role is. den wan take away my eagles award becox of that fuking project. jux scold me. so wad i am the chairperson? i rather don be lo. den d&t i also the leader. project also din do. so many projects given at one go. i am really tired. tired. i really feel so tired. jux feel like giving everything up. nobody understands at all. ya. mayb i only know how to smile and laugh. but u all know how stress am i to entertain people like u? but i am gald i have friends like fann and kahmei. they laugh with me and i feel really happy. and gina whom always stick for me. nothing is perfect. i don expect eu all to be perfect. but pls think too, i am neither perfect. pls don rise ur expectations to so high that i couldnt even see it within my sightness. thats really selfish. i think nowadays my attitude also change le. mayb because of the things happening. but i hope the others wont quarrel with me abt myy atitude. i will tyr to control it. sorry.

time pass so fast``

2005-07-23T10:18:00.000-07:00

hahax. changed a new blog skin. also insert a new tagboard le. tag wad eu want ba. haha. wa. time pass so fast sia. now already 1 month after holiday le. got many many many projects need to rush sia. haha. somemore today going NDP with guoxiang, wenting and xiangjie. think would be fun and nice ba. but before that going KFC eat. haha. this few days also nothing to say la. wenting and mclin also okae abit le ba. ytd play abc with save point de with boon. play so long we still at save point 2 only. den i give up. don wan play liao. haha. edwin go extent the jiao head hohx. not nice ler. too long liao. when he got money, he going extent the parrot head liao. haha. this few days everyday also go 338. donno why also. den at night i always cant fall sleep. den willtake my brother hp, the video to record many funny things la. den when morning go school, i will very tired and wish to sleep de ler. hai. donno la. somemore volleyball the theory, so many get wrong ler. but the rest of my teammates more jialet den me. hai. my chinses test die liao la. the last page, most important page, more den 25 marks de.. i din do ler!! after i finish my test, i saw all my class mates still doing ler. den i go see if i miss out any page. still i din flip till the last page. den i go do DnT project summore. teacher ask me keep, den i keep lo. but i nothing to do, so sleep lo. next day den i realize got 1 more page. den i double check with my friends. they also say got 1 more page. no wonder my teacher like so angry with me sia. hai. next week got geography and math test. hope can pass lo. think thats all ba. take care friends. :)

sho many people sick -.-

2005-07-16T11:08:00.000-07:00

yox yox. heex. since so long den i blog this post. sorry wor. was very busy with my studies and volleyball. haix. donno why ler. nowadays so many people sick sia. ytd boon nvr go school, den i after skool company him go polyclinic see doctor. den after that. raining. den we cannot go back. so boon rest here awhile. den we go nearby there eat lo. eat le we take cab go hong bao house. cos boon need somewhere to rest lo. den when reach hongbao house, he still at home. cos 1 hr before he tell me he going out le. den we reach his house he still at home lo. but after 10 mins he gone out le. den i help boon take his temp. 38.6 ler!!! wao lao. veyr worry abt him. den i put towal and ice water on his head and neck. den when to slp. till 9 plus. den take his temp again. luckily fever gone le. 36.7 nia. when he reach home 36.6 lo. hmmm. den heard from hongbao that mclin, edwin, serene, sean, ben and himself also sick ler. nowadays weather very not good. please take care of urself la. drink more plain wate kaes. and happy birthday to guoxiang!!
birthday song: happy birthday to eu
happy birthday to eu
happy birthday to guoxiang(aiai)
happy birthday to eu!!!
heex. guoxiang. 18 years old le. must more mature liao hoh. don so guai lan also. haha. kidding. hope ur wish can come true and can go polytechnic!! jia you!! haha. this few days keep raining, seldom play basketball le. got go down 338, but always raining de. somemore so many hw and projects. all haben finish also. sian. lazy also. later going siling sec for the carnival. cos i have a $10 coupon with me ma. mr kheng gave me de. ask me go there. but boon donno still sick not. donno can ask him go not. den mclin donno wake up le not. haiz. i think mclin this few days or even week really very terrible. not in the sense that he din go skool, its in the sense tat how i feel. i jux feel that he needs sum1 alot. but that sum1 was immposible for him liddat. wad i can see from him is, he really means wad he say. i jux hope that some1 would gib him 1 more chance to let him prove that he really love that some1 and needs that some1 alot. but as that some1 says, love cannot be force. so think mclin can only wait and wait. but mclin, please go to school. every hang outside or even stay at home makes no difference. i hope to be by ur side when u need friends, but i cant even get to see eu. if eu really thinks eu wanna give that some1 up, den jux give up ba. if eu really thinks eu love her so much that eu don wish to give up, den please jux wait. don jio her anymore doesnt mean give up. jux wait. wait till eu all very good friends. understand each other. and she willing to give eu another chance de shi hou den jio her back. mayb sometimes wad she says to eu hurt eu alot, but eu jux need to accept it. kaE? take care. i miss eu lots lots lots :) everybody like want to play lan everyday ler. donno why also. and my that papa(hongchuan) nowwhere to be seen wan. wan see him also cannot. and also long time din see guoxiang le. wenting also. miss eu all lots. hope to see eu all soon ba. and 1 more. wenkun. if eu happen to see my blog, jux wanna ask eu how's life? betteR? i miss the past that we had been together. and i think my life's much much much much more better than eu. i.. jus hope that 1 day, we can be back to the past. when i think of the past, how we been together, jux hope eu be by my side to listen to my xin shi. cos, i have nobody to say my xin shi to. not that i don have friends. i have. and their very good and true to me. but donno some is anot la. but i only trust eu. eu and eu only. other den boon, i have no 1 to trust anymore. not that they are not trustworthy, jux that i cant bring myself to say all those xin shi to them. hais. i miss eu, our past. hope that ur barbarian mother and family wont treat eu that bad.jia you for everything. i think i say too much for today le. take care friends. dear, take good care of urself hohx. miss eu!!

stress`

2005-07-06T16:39:00.000-07:00

haix. school reopen for second week le. everything change so much sia. 24hrs for me really not enough. everyday mus do homework do till so late. den must so early wake up. this project.that project. thats the stress i get when i wanna study study and study. i really wanna study now le. but i too busy.but now, i everyday also study. so no much time left. actually studying not the really stress thing. is volleyball. i finds that i don really wanna play volleyball. its really tough and tired with all my school work and volleyball combine together lo. somemore i always get punishment for laughing too much. not serious. ytd, play match with my teammates. den like play till very fun ma. den coach ask me and gina come out. den she say gina first. den after that she ask gina go back. den left me there lo. she say i am assitant captain and should act like one. i don wanna be liao lo. wasnt fun at all. volleyball is kinda of sports that every1 should enjoy ma. if no enjoy, den why go for a training eu don like? why go for a training when nobody is smiling and laughing and looks so serious. haix. den i also dono wad happen. den i keep quiet. den also nobody dare to talk liddat. but i know my teammates already try to cheer me up le. thanks mates=) heex. hmm, me and boon now also okae okae la. i told him everything he did that hurts me last time. den i talk till half, den decide not to say anymore. cos like we now together le, so don need talk abt the past la. but he insist me to say. so i tell him everything lo. at least he knows wad i feel ba. be honest with him is better lo. now he also trying to study ba. jux hope he can pass his N level successfully and prove to gx,hb, mclin they all that not all 338 de ppl will go ITE de. heex. and i am sue he will make it into poly and the course he wanna study. i donno i really like volleyball anot. but sumthing i know is i like volleyball more in the past. starting to lose interest? hope not la. eh. my basketball now also rubbish le. nbm la. i am already very lousy in it, nothing to lose about anyway. heex. thats all ba. mis eu all so much!! miss eu dear!!

busy___`` busy_``busy___``

2005-07-01T15:59:00.000-07:00

sorry wor. so long din post le. haha. been very busy since start of skool. everyday also ful ful. now using more of my time on studying and volleyball le. den boon. this few days also din really see him except morning go skool and jux now saw him at causeway lo. haha. now i having IT course. till 4.30 ler. i got a stupid comp that cannot do my project and my teacher ask me share with ryan. he playing game. so i use the stupid comp write blog lo. nothing to do also. but nowadays, doing so much of my hw. like neglet boon liddat. hais. sorry wor. den he call me, i also like so fast put off the fone and ask him go slp. he keep say wan talk, den i say i tired le, den he ask me go slp lo. so hope this weekend can be with him lo. haha. start skool so stress ler. i everyday also full. monday got gym. tuesday got volleyball. wednesday got peer tutoring. thursay got volleyball again. den friday got IT course. cannot blame. streaming year. mus work harder. but i still fall slp in skool sia. den teacher write in the dairy. hais. volleyball very tough. here pain there pain. dying soon. today will go 338 lo. but gx and mclin they all going watch movie.. -.-". suan liao. now waiting to release den go home. den go 338. stupid sia. recently i also donno wad happen la. jux saw my blog and was shock. tag so mani like quarreling. but think also over liao ba. take care wor. haha. k la. don write so much. later ppl say i nagging again. miss eu all!!

i m happy``

2005-06-25T16:04:00.000-07:00

nahx. hahax. this few days really quite happy. mayb cos got guoxiang, zam they all bahx. den wenting and me also okae le. heex. den still got boon to let me bully. haha. yesterday we go watch movie. think got 14 people? midnight show lai de. haha. den me si beside boon and bao. that bastard bao. i wanna kill him liao. arrr!! he suddenly tap my shoulder sia. scared till i jump up. -.-"! somemore i got stomach cramps around my gastric part. den cramp that time, i facing bao. den i tell him why face him sia. ugly face!! =P heex. kidding la. den i try sit straight lo. i think actually not that scary la. but i keep scared tio. den boon not scared by the show, is by me. cos i pull his hand and scream at his ear ma. den my kor kor got go ma. he very hum sia. haha. stupid. after finish show, me, bao and boon walk another side without telling them. scared they angry. sorry hohx. cos we company bao go serene house giv her donno wad. den bao go home, and me and boon go alameen find they all lo. den at there, gx and mclin came le. den go home again without saying anything. weird. den zam and john eat finish den go kopitiam. den ying and amirah follow lo. den hai ming and liyi actually wan go home, i think they went to kopitiam too. den we wan go kopitiam buy drinks. den saw them. we say bye den go my house le. wenting, boon and xiangjie go my house lo. we watch lai bi xiao xin. funny sia. but i wanna fall slp liao. haha. den play with boon lo. he bully me!! bully me!! =(.. sob sob. haha. den they watch finish den go home le. i wait till boon reach home den go slp. den morning 7 wake up call my kor kor, cos he got training lo. den go back slp till 10+. den wake up. after that, 12 go slp. but din fall slp. rest there till 2.20. den wake up play comp lo. den saw mclin blog. so many post i din read sia. haha. all the best for him. =) take care!! guoxiang: i will be there when u need me!! hehex. mis eu all. muacks =P

turning back time``t0 e happy m0m3nts*_

2005-06-20T13:03:00.000-07:00

nahx. haha. they say my blog write until abit not fair to the fuchun girls. haha. so i write 1 to apologise. mus see this post hohx!! sorry. for not thinking for eu all de feelings. but actually i din say i don welcome eu all la. why eu all think so much ler? still got liting. i really don wish that my previous post affect eu and any1 in 338 de friendship. espcially guoxiang and zam. lolx. that COCKSTER!! haha. if can, come 338 lo. and hohx, i don think i got giv eu those bu shuang de expression before ler. mayb i too fierce liao. but really din give la. paiseh. haha. if u got anything that eu not happy with, can still tell me de wad. i wont kill eu de ma. that COCKSTER say wan us to be closer. haha. mayb can? although e COCKSTER really only know how to talk cock, but his cocking makes sense too. somemore his ang moh too lousy to compare with me liao. haha. ai ya. haha. donno la. zam say don like e word "let natural take course". den he ytd still say sia. stupid ar. haha. i also donno la. mayb i don interfer in anything lo. that COCKSTER say wan. lolx. haha. k la. ytd think for such a long time. i still don think `its as bad as they say la. but i don think i should interfer. cos that COCKSTER say i only doing harm, not helping it. lolx. den i don think i should interfer too. heex. but i hope things wont turn out bad la. and COCKSTER, if can, try not to hurt any1 la. i think eu know wad i mean? cos u COCKSTER. lolx. although not as clever as i am, but i think i still can communicate with eu when i lowered my standard of cleverness. lolx. haha. say till i really that clever. ytd i si bei pek cek ler. wao lao. i hungry ma. den talking on fone with boon ler. den i ask my sis if she can cook for me, cos she eating ma. den she don wan. ask me cook myself. den i haben eat the whole say expect in cinema the potato la. den i wan go cook. cos is dry de ma, so i have to pour out the hot water when the mee cook okae liao lo. den i at first din pour. i say the somehow like spoon which have holes on it to take out the mee. den i keep drop the mee. so boon say use pour de. i take to the basin to pour, den all the mee pour into the basin sia!!! hell ar. wao lao. den i..i..really going crazy liao. den boon still keep say i stupid wor. haha. den i go recook again.. wao lao. den cook still `burn my hand somemore. so unlucky ytd lo. haha. really wanna thanks boon for being there when i need him =) miss every1 wor!! heex. take care friends. hope everything can be better and e best. muacks =P

``338____

2005-06-18T11:15:00.000-07:00

338. is that a place that really sadden all of eu? yesterday 5 am den go home. den today 9.30am wake up le. ytd was chatting with guoxiang, mclin and hongbao. at first is go alameen eat la. cos we all very hungry ma. den while eating, den talk cock lo. cos got that cockster` haha. den play ice? they shoot here and there. but me very guai de. i din shoot. heex. den after eating finish, we still sit there for quite awhile den go 338. mclin ride me back. he no skill wan sia. haha. den at there, chat so many things. suddenly know the reason why guoxiang do this and that. its better to know. if not, will have lots of misunderstanding. at least he explain, i know the reason and wont blame him la. den we talk abt each other bad points and good points lo. that idiot guoxiang!!! die die also don let me have good point sia. wao lao eh. feel like killing him ar!!! but ytd was fun la. during the talk. hmmm. guoxiang say wan every1 to come down today. 18th. to talk, chat. i think that wasnt a really good idea. cos 338 de us, like don really trust each other. eg. wenting only say her problems to me. den mclin will only say his problems to zam. zam will only say his problems to guoxiang. boon will only say his problems to me. and i, too. will only say my problems to boon, bao, ting and donno got mclin anot. but recently de things, he should know ba. i don think fuchun de girls is the reason or the cause of wad happens in 338. is us, ourselves. when fuchun de girls came, guoxiang they all suddenly like somehow ignore us. not ignore la. is not as close liao la. to me la, he say he din ignore me. jux that i got boon le, summore i din go talk to him, so he also din talk to me. but wad i think is, he din come talk to me, den still have fuchun de girls company him. wad for i got talk to him? reasons the same la. but i jux know that everything that happen in 338, is timing wrong. to bring this family, this group together, everyone of us has to do sumthing. not only guoxiang. i think if we, ALL of us, has the heart, we sure can get back together. about fuchun de girls joining us not, i not really sure la. but wenting say la, group members don decrease, don increase, is e best. i think it makes a point too. at least all of us know each other and form this group during the december holidays. and it was so fun being together. talk cock, play basketball, play volleyball. so fun and happy. =) fuchun the girls isnt the cause of 338 being liddat, but they did make a big big different in 338. good or bad? i also donno. to me, they make nothing different la. cause i don talk to them much. i don even play basketball with them. only seldom. they don make any different to me la, but they did to mclin, guoxiang, zam.. etc.. the difference they make to them, also make different effects to us too la. some sort of changing of attiude towards us la. at first fuchun de girls came down, i also don like. but after their apperance, 338 became so cold le. so they come down also good la, as least 338 wasnt a unwanted court. this sentance is SPECIALLY for mclin: d4rling, don always think that 338 don have friends for eu. actually there are if eu wan. not facing the problem doesnt mean that its solving the problem. eu are jux running away. 1 day, eu still need to solve the problem. now, as eu say, the problem is solved. wad if another problem happens again? wad will eu do again? don come down? is that the way eu solve a problem? think about it. not facing a problem is only a temporary thing. it cant stay forever. i donno eu will get to read this part not, cos it is already at the bottom of my post. let go of the past, and ur life would be better. i will always be there for eu =). and i believe that 338, still have friends that would be there for eu. hmmm. now say to wenting liaox: xii4ozUu, i think e matter's over le ritE? i know asking eu to forget abt wad happen now isnt easy, but i hope eu would try. i think it will help to make things better? slowly. i will be there for eu too =) take care!! hmmm, as for hongbao. haha. i got nothing to say abt him. cos he got nothing to say. a crapster. lolx. haha. kae la. hongbao's a good guy, best friends. hohx? haha. den guoxiang neh, if can, i still hope that we can be like e past. AIAI. haha. or eu don wan also can la. hmmm, he's trying to bring the family together, so hope this will be successful =). den today me and boon 1 month liao. anniversary. haha. so happie =) miss him lots ler. he should be HONOUR ar. although everytime torture by me, we are still happy being together. rite? don thin eu will see this post too. i miss eu. heex. =P think thats all i wanted to say. i miss the past, the fun times. hope it could be better. take care friends!!

`changes of attitude____

2005-06-15T14:37:00.000-07:00

eh. ytd got training sia. 8.30 to 12. den 3 to 6. so tired. after the morning training, we still have afternoon but got 3 hr break so went to causeway eat lo. we eat long john. haha. den we finish de shi hou, saw vanessa. ask her if she wanna sit not, cos long john full ma. so let them sit lo. den after that, saw hongbao. haha. he going watch movie. den we waited for jayda's friend to come. very long sia,watse my slping time. den we return to skool and take a nap for abt 20 mins? den training start again liao lo. den after training, walk pass 338 den go home. cos celebrating lindi birthday, so i go home bath le den go 338. den i saw lindi crying. i ask her wad happen. she say she's under alot of stress that her mother is giving her. her mother scold her brother too harsh and her brother ran away. den her mother keep call her wan her find her bro. so we wait there so long for the celebrating. den wenting say very sian. wan go home le. den when we wan celebrate. juliana realise her hp lost le. den ask hu saw the hp. den nobody take. cos she put on the table that every1 sit there to play poker cards ma. den after every1 left, nobody take care of her things when she go 178 and look for juliana's brother with gason. den she cry lo. den we go light the cake, say wan start celebrate. den juliana's mother suddenly cum up and shout at her. aks her why never on ur hp. den she say her hp lost liao. den her mother veyr fierce sia. cos the hp very exoensive. panasonic X400. den her mother say wad we are not good childrens cos we hang up here. den we all very pek cek ma. den her temper is over limit lo. den aaron they all cannot stand it anymore. den scold her back la. wao lao. den she shout and ask who take better admit now. if not she call police come check. den kadson pekcek. den his fone call 999 and give juliana's mother. den she call poloce come lo. we got mani ppl there ma. so we put our bags on the table together and let the police check lo.den i very cold. after check finish my bag, i ask boon company me go toilet. and we ask sean along lo. hais. so suay. den check all finish, don have. den the police write statement lo. i saw many ppl cry. wenting, guoxiang, amirah, yingying, lindi, juliana.. hais. was meant to be a brithday party. den zam spring his leg. den ambulance come. go hospital and guoxiang company him lo. den after the handfone things, juliana's brother same as linda's brother, also run away from home. den juliana's mother ask juliana unless she find her brother, if not she can don go home liao. fuck lo. den we wait at 338. wenting they all go bath cos they play flour.den when they come down, juliana's mother found her brother liao. den she go home lo. den we go alameen eat. den after that, company wenting home. den sit at 338 chit chat lo. until 2 liddat den go home. tired. den go msn send boon songs. den i go bath den he offline liao. den i sa wmy msg. he ask me call him with i wan lo. den i call him. den he call back my kor kor's hp. den we chat for quite long la. till 3.45am. den i ask him go slp. cos he tired ma. den he keep wan me say the 3 words to him den he go slp. he sya he everytime say to me but i din say to him. den wan me say. den i say in chinese. den he wan the english version somemore. wao lao. haha. den say to him lo. den he smile till so happy liddat. den after put the fone away liao. he msg me and say whahahaha. finally heard that 3 words. stupid sia!! haha. think i wrote too much liao. i think juliana cannot come up again le. wish her all the best and i will miss her =) hope everything wont be so bad le. take care friends.

2005-06-12T08:50:00.000-07:00

haha. so tired. ytd go watch boon's de 3 on 3. got lots of pro sia. donno why their competition meriton de sia. so boon they all have to ton lo. somemore their team got 1 idiotic shooter sia. not in e sense of shooting basketball veyr pro. is in the sense of shooting people. that means suaning la. idiot sia him. ytd me, sean, boon, him[kuan yew la!] and bao go home first ma. cos they wanna bath as their next match start at 3AM sia. den we take mrt back. the stupid kuan yew la. shoot me non-stop sia. then they keep laughing. he's so scary man. somemore he lame nevermind ler. i compnay him lame also sia. carrot. lolx. haha. den we laugh till wan faint liao. but with him around, the time past very fast la. before that, we at there watch match. boon's first match at 3pm plus ba. den they won. 24-08. haha. den i must plus 100 for boon ler. den evening, i ask boon company me go toilet, cos youth centre de close liao, so must go the shopping mall ma. then i scared lost ask him bring me go. den he call bao they all and we meet at "cineleagen"[donno how to spell] den we go toilet lo. den after they come out, den jux walk away ler. totally forget abt me sia. the rest forget me nevermind ler. boon also forget sia. den at first i saw banana's hat, so i follow from far away. follow follow follow, den lost them liao. wao biang eh. den i look here and there. den saw them waiting for me at the escalator there. dey tot i wan pinch they sia. so cover their neh neh. haha. den i reach liao, all laughing at me, say i anyhow walk. den i say back that they din wait for me still say i anyhow walk. but i din angry la. den reach back the court de shelter there, boon ask me where is sean's braclet ma. sean's braclet is magnetic wan. so i stick it on boon's shoe bag. but when boon go see, lost liao. den i say go back find. den he shout at me sia. he say:"zhu ar ni! put there sure lost de ma" den i say go back find see have anot lo. den he shout back again:"sure don have de ma!" den i pek cek. go back find. den he and sean follow me. den i reach the place at first me and boon sitting de. den i saw the braclet. den it take and give back to sean and walk away liao. den boon call me. den i turn back. he ask if im angry ar? den i say no and walk back le. ytd saw boon's ex. jasmine. at the shelter there, they sit beside us ler. i mean jasmine's stead and friends la. den jasmine keep looking at me and boon. her those"girl-friends" too la. donno why sia. den when we go toilet. got 1 guy keep looking at me when i cross he road. but i donno at all. den after me and boon wlak pass him. den boon suddenly say"kuai lan jio ar" den i ask wad happen? the boy see him huhx? den he say the boy seeing me. den i tot he kidding sia. den i ask again. the boy see u, u not happy ar? den he say back"is see u la!" den i donno ma. den he tell me from the starting he keep seeing me liao. at the court also. den boon keep see him back la. donno la. there got so many weird weird people de. den juz now i more stupid lo. me and bao meet 6.30 go somerset find them ma. den i 6.35 call bao, cox he haben come the place we meeing. den i call the third time den he ans. he say he slping, ask if he can don go not. den he sound very tired ma, so i go myself lo. before that, i go msg boon. but he din reply, so i tot he still playing the match, so go down myself. till bishan den boon reply me sia. tell me he reaching home liao. den i go back again. waste 1 hr. sian. nevermind la. now den realise i so stupid sia. hais.

back to e past``

2005-06-10T13:28:00.000-07:00

hais. see wad happen to wenting and mclin hohx. i see le also heartpain ar. hais. hmmm. i think mclin let it past le ba. but hohx. they like very easy quarrel de ler. little little bit also quarrel de lohx. sian ar. donno if we can go back to the past not? the 5 of us. hmmm. if can, it will be good la. cos friendship can lasted longer. heex. donno wad will happen if we go back to the past. sure very fun de. but i think its immposible la. mayb me, boon and bao can. if mclin with us, wenting wont be. if wenting with us, mclin wont be. haiyo. haha. sian. boon go taka sia. go register. den i so sian at home. change my blogskin. haha. den tml boon going taka again sia. wao lao eh. haha. ytd he call me hohx, den he get scolded by his mother sia. his mother like so fierce ler. den he faster put off e fone liaos. i so sian. mclin that stupid wan ler. don have slipper den don wan come down. wao lao. go buy la. no money take from mother la. 3dollar nia ler. wao lao. haha. don care. must see him today. hais. den wad should i do today nehx? go find hongbao? he sure go lan de lar. donno wad to do. i don like lan. go there see them play meh? stupid lo. donno la. haha. talk abt boon birthday that day la. haha. me 1 oclock pull bao go buy present with me. i bought 2 shirt for him. 1 black and 1 blue. haha. den i forget bring my hp, so ask boon go my house help me take first. thanks =). haha. den after that, meet go ice-skating. so long sia. den boon's cousin's friend, got 1 girl, height 17plus sia. stupid ler. den boon's friends saw me, keep see my height see if i got taller den nicole not. cos nicole very short. somemore he's a boy. haha. got abt 16 ppl go ice-skate ba. haha. fun la. at there, i fall down mani times. so scared. den we make the train. so long. den vanessa fall down, almost every1 in the train also fall. haha. den we continue sia. but the coach there ask us cut into halve. den we stop the train liao. den after ice-skate, we go eat. i share with boon cos i full liao. de i ask him add alittle more when buying ma. den he go buy 6dollar de ler. stupid sia. den i take little bit. cannot finish. haha. den he keep ask me eat. den i don wan. cos wan vomit le. den after tat. we go watch movie. mr and mrs smith. nice sia. they fight very voilent ler. den boon should realise i very gentle to him liao. haha. den finish movie, den go home le lo.ytd go kfc. haha. eat le den go buy bubble tea. den wait for lindi. she very long sia. den okae le. i go home awhile den go 338 liao. boon aks me 5.15 call him. i forget ler. haha. but he awhile come down liao. den gina give him his present. den he keep say i jealous ler. i really don have la. that bhb wan.den at 338 play basketball. den lose to guoxiang 2-point sia. own him 400 push up. i return abt 150 liao ler. still got 400. den i do 100 again. still got 300. my kor kor wan help me do 100. haha. den boon wan help me do 100. den after awhile, i don wan boon help liao. cos his hand got injuries wan. den own guoxiang lo. sian. play while, den rain liao. so me and boon go 328 sit sit waiting for bao. den wenting call me, ask me where am i cos her keys with me. den i go back 338 gib her. after hongbao come, den boon and him go 338 take ball. den i wait for them lo. boon came back first la. den after that bao then come back. den got 4 black idiots. morons ar!! purposely sit our there. den we go bao house lo. watch show. den i go home at 10 lo. haha. thats all la. i write so much sia. take care friends! =)

h4ppy birthd4y t0 d3ar de4r``

2005-06-08T09:30:00.000-07:00

haha. todae boon's birthday ler. heex. going ice-skating later. siao liao la. i haven bought his present yet ler. i cant find the things he wish to get. hai ya. later pull hongbao company me go buy. nahx. ytd went to sentosa with boon, bao, ginny, gina and jogina. lame sia. 6 people go nia. haha. but fun la. we play e lao ying catch xiao ji. haha. laugh till faint ar. cox this game small small kids play de ma. den we 6 teenagers go play. look very stupid la. den at there, met eggy and her friends and sister? think so. inside also got ah sheng ba. den after that, we go bath le den go eat. ginny and jogina went home le. wa. when we going out of sentosa that time, my head hurts till going burst liao. feel like using my head to bang the wall sia. den we go makan. eat le. den we take bus from harbourfont till woodlands sia. 1hour plus. but i was slping. so awhile reach liao. haha. so tired sia. think thats all lohx. i so surprise that wenting msg me sia. tot she was still angry. nah. i nvr say that i am high class or u are low class. i will nvr rank ppl according to their studies acadamic especially eu. things are getting better between eu all le. all e best. happy birthday to dear dear~~

..happy birthday to zam..!

2005-06-06T11:18:00.000-07:00

nahx. ytd went to zam's bbq at 338. quite alot of people la. but before ytd. boon and ting quarrel. when boon like scold back wenting, den i ask him don say anything. den he ask me to keep quiet and don say anything when he's saying wenting. den i keep quiet lo. den i also donno wad happen. they 2 quarrel, but wenting always don wish to talk to me. i apologise also seems no use at all. wenting thinks that i wont stand by her side. think for me la. wad if eu were me? if ting chosen to talk to me. it wont be lidat de. cos boon will talk to me. i of cos will talk to him la. she don wanna talk to me, i still follow her everywhere she go meh? liddat keep quiet all e way? i don wanna get involve in this thing le. i donno anything. i don wish to know. i only know boon and ting nowadays also very moody la. but ting say with us she wont have 1 day haapy. den i think i wont go with her le ba. go with her, she not happy i don think i will laugh or smile de lo. make things till liddat jux bcox of a small things. i wonder wads on eu 2 de mind? i don understand la. but if ting think she liddat veyr happy, den let it be ba. nothing i can do. i only know i now only have boon by my side. he dotes on me more than i expected. and mclin. that day we four sitting on the playground. i saw eu smiling and laughing. talking abt jokes. eu still think eu have no friends? me? bao? boon? we 3 not worth enough to let eu come back? ai ya. eu think urself la. i donno everything la. nothing to say le. and hohx. ytd play 2 point with guo xiang. i ate 4 lime and he eat 6. tears come out ar. den we continue play. eat mustard ar!! only me sia. i keep lose ler. ytd eat so much rubbish. sian. haha. but fun and challenging la. haha. thats all. happy birthday to zam!! birthday song: happy birthday to eu. happy birthday to eu! happy birthday to lame zam. happy birthday to eu!! take care!! =)

338`

2005-06-04T10:09:00.000-07:00

haix. too mani things happen at 338 le. i also donno why it happens like this. i m starting to hate him. the one that uses basketball skills to rank friends. i donno why everybody was like giving in to him. he say things that are unreasonable and doesnt make sense at all. and 1 more. without considering others feelings. so wad he is pro in basketball. it doesnt mean he has the right to reprimary others. say till himself very pro liddat. every1 should have a chance to improve. and he, doesnt even give a damn chance. without him there, i think i will be happier lohx. he change le. unlike the past. he thinks he with us got a weird feelings. den don be lohx. he everytime liddat say. say till like we don have him will die. we wont de lohx. fucking get off. i wonder wad he's thinking in his that brainless mind lohx. changes of attitude so fast. wonder how ur friends tahan eu. i donno eu all treat 338 as wad. not happy don come. happie den come. wads that? 338 is full of sad memories also bcox eu all made it urself. everybody keep say don wanna come 338 anymore. say like 338 is a very bad place liddat. if 338 really don have any worthy friends to make any1 of eu to stay, den eu all might as well go away. i see liao also sian lohx. now in 338. i only got 3 trusted people. m0i dear, wenting and hongbao. they rocks my world. we were all so happie in the past. haix. i also donno la. all friendship are so fragil. now, i only wan to last my friendship with wenting and hongbao and my relationship with boon. the rest, i don think its worth for me to think abt it. actually mclin also inside. jux that he also say that he don wanna come 338 animore. so i don think there's a need for me to say he rocks my world. he gonna leave us aniway. somemore he doesnt trust me at all. fine lohx. talk to him was so difficult. i say everything also not true. wad the hell. suan liao la. jux hope things wont continue liddat la. now i only hope mclin and wenting still can be friends la. i still don undertstand. i seems to know the most things, but yet i like donno anithing. haix. why things become liddat? boon say i change le. haha. also donno change wad. think my attitude towards him la. cox i don wanna give him so much la. nbm la. haha. my attitude this few days also quite bad. cox i really very tired le. feel like slping yet i have a very scared feeling during the night. like ytd like that. i 5plus den slp. 8 wake up le. i was so scared that i ask boon if he wants to call me. den he call me til 3 plus. i know he very tired le. so ask him go slp. he also quite worry leaving me alone la. den i really cannot slp sia. i have a feeling that something gonna happen to either me, wenting, hongbao or boon. but i think will be wenthing ler. i think she gonna go bersek liao. anitime will commit suicide or do silly and stupid things ler. worry abt her. so now, i will company her by her side everyday to make sure that nothing happens. =) and i think so needs friends now. so i think i better stay by her side. as for mclin. he don even trust me like how ting and boon trust him. so i don think there's a need for me to stay beside him. anyway, he also got his jie and ben le. k la. i say so much le. think i should stop le bahx. hope everything turn out better everyday ba. miss eu guys!!

i am back!!

2005-06-02T16:03:00.000-07:00

heex.. back from my long and tired camp le. finally. os tired. there's total 19hours of tranining lo. den me here pain there pain. den i donno how to roll ma. den coach keep wan me roll till i know how to. den i fall so mani times. den now my butt so pain. cox that stupid lion janice la!! i only scared her. den she push me. i fall down. nearly roll down the stairs ar. haha. but tis stupid enough to do those bo liao scaring. haha. that lion got shock ar. the face so funny. donno why ler. i like to shoot that lion wan. her face like jux written "qin suan wo" haha. so i shoot her non-stop de. but fun la. cox she not petty. no attitude. somemore she act cute ar!! haha.. twist to me ler. i need a bin to vomit liao. haha. this 3 days finally pass. pass till veyr xin ku. cox misses dear very much. and know mani things happen in 338. but cant get to know. donno why ler. dear like seems donno anithing liddat de ler. cox we talk on fone during my camp hoh. he like don even know a single thing liddat. haha. but talking to him on fone is fun la. happie =).. at least i know how much we meant to each other.. muackx. heex. that wenting. kinda of missing her during my camp too. haha. without her jiao bin. lolx. jux now. we got training ma. last training for the camp le. den coach got angry. cox we cant do wad she expect us to. eg.recevining den roll. haix. den me and jasmine so headach. must think this and that to answer coach question. coach says we cant remand out bad habits even she pushes us. she says she push us push till she really very tired and feel like stopping liao. actually she's a very good coach. i like when she smiles and the time will go off very fast. but she tends to be very serious during training. she's the best coach. she knows wad to do and made us improve so much during this camp. thtas wad i don expect tht we could improve so fast. but its tough for us la. so now we resting till the 3rd week lo. my bunking pathner is josephine. actually pathner with her very good. get to eat this and that. and my favourite green tea!!! haha. donno that i get to drink during the camp. haha. but den during training. she also my pathner lo. very difficult to play volleyball with her. cox she like doesnt seems how to control the ball liddat. den need pick ball la. abit frastruted. nbm la. must gib time. den coach ask us to do the lanscape format. haha. we promise to change out bad habit by the end of june. i can do it. cox thats a positive thought coach teach us during theory training. i hope every1 in the team can do it. and they will do it!! jia you team mates!! heex. talk so much abt my team. now talk about myself la. now my life is full of colours le. i have got wad i don expect to have. very happy for the time being. i hope this feeling would not fade. and it will fade easily if anything happens espacially for dear. heex. love him. k la.. take care friends. miss eu!!

.holidays are here again.

2005-05-28T16:25:00.000-07:00

sianx ar. got my results le. actually everysub pass. but that stupid history. wad the fuck. i fail lo. 44/100. jux bcox she cant see my name on my project as it is written in luminous green at the last page. i don think its my fault. she should have seen more clearly. she say she give me the marks le, but cant key into the report book, den wad for she give me the marks? like got use liddat. wau lau eh. she say take it as a lesson lo although its a high price to pay. dot dot dot. i think its isnt fair cox those pass up on friday de all got the marks. somemore i thurday got trianing. i do all night jux for that project. sian. nbm la. haha.. volleyball camp coming le. tuesday. i saw the training schdule le. second day got 10 and a half hours of trainings ler. siao liao la. den i will be away for 3 days le. sian ar. cannot go 338. haha. thats all.

hehehex

2005-05-23T00:41:00.000-07:00

hehehex. so long nvr update le. got good news for moiself lo. haha. got a new dear le. heex. tat day we meet go buy food eat. he buy for his father. den raining so we sit at stair case chatting and eating lo. den got 1 siao eh hohx. mad 1 ar. come and di siao siao. i tot he was gonna beat dear up ler. thats y i got so jing zhang and guai lan with that man lo. heng we both alright la. donno why ler. at the time. i only know that noting wil happen to me with him by my side. that increase my sense of security from him and i realise i cant afford to lose him lo. hope he does too =). about wenting. sorry ar girl. don mean it. don angry amirah le la. kaes? me and mclin go back to the past le. darling again. heex. kae la. happy tis week la. hope don angry on anione la. but i now sore throat. cannot shout but can talk.den play basketball slide. leg 2 more small small hole liao. heex. but nbm la. more jialet wan hohx. is i sprain my neck ler. wao lau eh. pain till i wan cry le. sian. haha. traning resume le. tired days are back. donno ler. i think i this week is full of happiness atmosphere. i think this type of atmosphere will somehow being fade away. but i will trust him. i wanna regain the trust between me and him no matter wad happens before. i wont use our past to remind eu of the present or even future that wad u should do. cox i know e reasons for wad eu have done. heex. now very stable. hahaha. hope mclin say de wont come true lohx. haha. thats all bahx. miss eu friends =)

attitude problem =(

2005-05-15T14:35:00.000-07:00

haix. this week my attitude really suxz. i know. i really know. i also don wish to be like this. and i realize i hurt someone hu is very important to me =(. sorry mclin. i know u wont accept my apologize cox i ytd say sorry to him so mani times. and even make a chicken for him. he don even wanna look and don wanna say anithing. haix. nbm lar.. suan liaox.. take it that he don have me as a fred bahx.. den i think i will stop going 338 also le. since wenting also don like me. go there also so extra. ytd got bbq. i was so happy at first. den we play dai di on 2 different tables. i lent hp from mclin.den finish playing de shi hou, i left the table without taking the hp. den mclin saw den he say me, but i know he was kidding only. i also wish that i can be in the mood the play with him too. but i really cant. den when i finish playing basketball. he ask mi help him take care of his fone. i shout at him. den he angry le. haix. den i go one side play volleyball myself. den boon come and find me. he told me my handfone is ringing. no number de. i say nbm about it and continue hiting the volleyball.. boon understand. he was the only who does. and he sees mi play until i stop. he ask me wad happen and i tell him. he help me think of mani solutions too. but it doesnt help. but thanks =). den i say say say. my tears nearly come out le. i don wan him see me cry. so i say lets go back. he say wan cry den cry. it's ok de. but i still insists to go back. den we went back. i change my mood. and start smiling to hongbao and xiangjie they all.den i saw wenting diao me. den i ask amirah wad happen. den she told mi lohx. sometimes i think that one should mind their own business and don gossip so much lohx. but its her comments. but i think she is right also. suan le. my faulth again. den i went to ride bicycle with xiang jie. den come back. jux nice 10 o'clock lohx. the lights off le. den i saw lindi lying on the table. ask her wad happen. she say she gastric pain. den i say i comapny her go home. den she sya she live very far. den say don need. but i insist and ask amirah and hongbao along. i know actually wenting also wan go at first de. den she know i going and boon also, den she don wanna go le.. haix.. den mi,amirah and hongbao walk her home.. on den after awhile, boon, sean and si kai walk down.. den si kai was walking home. den left we 5 and lindi lohx.. walk halfway rain le.. en lindi ask us go back. den we say cannot. must bring her home first. den raining ma. but very fun lar. boon pull my rubber band. give hongbao. den i keep chase hongbao lohx. in the end we go back, the rubberband with amirah!! -.-" i going craxy liao ar.. den sean go home. den we go back 338. all of them still there lohx. den they playing cards. wenting saw me come back. den she go home le. haix.. again.. nbm lar.. she wan liddat i also cannot go anithing.. den me, amirah, boon and bao sit on the table chat chat lohx.. den go field there sit watching lighting. den 11.45pm go home. den i reach home. got handfone ringing.not mine. den i realize guoxiang's belonging all with me siax. den i take back to 338 and return him lohx. den i say bye bye. i hope mclin will say back to me. but he din. he was really angry. haix. =(. morning we were still so happy. wad the fark i doing!! den i moring wake up. he sick still company me play basketball yet i liddat treat him.. haix.. really sorry =(. den afternoon i go home, i fever. but evening i think quite ok le. only feel abit headach niax lohx.. den when i return home. 12 oclock le. den faster go bath. very cold siax. den i help my kor kor cook maggie. her very ma fan lohx.. haha.. den boon reply me in sms. den we chat chat chat lohx.. den he ask mi call him. i say cannot cox i scared my mum suddenly come back. so we keep sms lohx. haha.. den talk abt so mani things between me and him. den he go slp. my sis cook maggie den we share lohx. eat finish den i rest awhile den go slp le. was thinking should i msg mclin. but i think he will think i very irritating keep say sorry he also wont reply de lohx. so din go disturb him.. i really hope to get the job soon. den my life will be busy. now i realize boon is e only one whom i can talk anithing with. ytd i got tell amirah if she can, try to stay together with us as a team. den she say okae. haha. at least i still got e heart to ask. suan le. i think its time i put everything behind and change moi attitude le. sorry friends.

sleeping time is a difficulty to me

2005-05-14T09:29:00.000-07:00

haix. wonder how i sleept everyday. today 8 woke up le.. ytd 3 am den slp siax.. haix.. ytd hang off boon's fone. actually we like play play nia.. den i really hang off.. den he msg mi tell me he kidding niax.. den say nbm.. ask mi go slp earlier.. den i reply wan mi call back not.. he say suan liaox.. nbm.. at first he still there haix haix haix.. sorry.. i shouldnt hang up his fone de.. cox he this few days will find mi is cox i can company him chat.. yet i hang off his fone.. haix.. really sorry.. den i msg him.. i send 3 msg to him.. the last 1 i send at 3am.. but i think he mayb purposely don wan reply mi de bahx.. haix.. sorry =(.. this few days my attitude suxs.. suxs like hell.. totally hell.. i wanna change my life. i wanna start a new life. who coulld help me.. feel like crying everyday.. den everyday write those stupid diary. journal in a book.. still bought book marks to remind myself wad i should do.. am i so irritated? being a volleyball captain in my skool wasnt a proud thing. i wont wan to tell others i am a volleyball captain. cox being it makes my life terrible. i have 7 team mates. we arent suppose to be in contact with the boys in skool especially basketball players.. but 2 of my team mates like to flirt. in the end. i an always the 1 kana scold that i must have the resposibility to take good care of them and tell them wad shouldnt be done and wad should be done. i try my best to tell them. some really listen to mi. i was so grateful and touch. i love them more than myself. i will try to protect them and prevent andy trobles to find them in skool. but.. wad they know? they know nothing and only know how to kao bei kao bu. they never think before they does anithing. my team mates like to flirt i also cannot help. i have no rights to infer their lifes if they think their life is wonderful. i have got nothing to say anymore to them. i think i have sacrifies lots for them le. everytime we have trainings.. we really very stress.. i will entertain them.. make they happy laugh.. this is part of my job[miss lim ask mi de]. but when i cheer them up.. dey really laugh. i was so happy. but jayda always say not furni.. make my mood sank. haix. and i know some of my team mates is jealous of me being the captain. i can don be if i can. but i cant. cox u all arent responsible at all. u all do wad also don dare to admit. u all only know how to blame others without look at urself in the mirror.. put mi inside ur shoes.. wad do u think?if u all think being the captain is easy and fun. den i don mind letting u all have the positions. I DON MIND AT ALL!! my life was so wonderful during sec 1 and of year when we were playing vas. we were so united. but this all was in the past. past. we can be back. but u all jux keep wanting ur own friends. take us for wad? when u all quarrel with ur friends then come back find us? u all farking get lost!! i rather be alone. be it the past or present. i have lost the interest for bring us together. u all do everything u all wan bahx.. i know miss lim tell mi de everything is for the sake of the team. i even say sorry to steph jux to being her back to the team. cox she told miss lim that when she appear in front of mi, i will very bushuang. i don think i am. i told miss lim my attitude was the same when i saw her. but she don believe mi. she went to ask gina. she really don believe me.. i put so much trust in this teacher.. and mr kheng. his attitude towards us changed. jux becox he heard jayda and steph flirting with basketball boys. is this fair to us. volleyball was a wonderful sports. but it wasnt in woodlands ring. i am in my wits road. nobody could help me. i need to stand up myself cox i have lost everything i USED to have.. nbm.. suan le.. nobody understands anyway.

.tired day.

2005-05-09T13:32:00.000-07:00

arrr.. finally come back home le.. actually still very early niax... haha.. today got mathematics and history exam.. haha.. the maths hohx.. boon teach mi teach till blur.. but also wan thnks him for being so patient... haha.. ytd stidy till 1 plus.. den 6 wake up again.. tired ar!! then exam somemore cannot slp ler... in the hall.. veyr quite.. first time exam in the hall.. wow.. heex.. den the maths.. quite difficult ler.. haix.. scared fail.. =(.. den the history.. actually okae lar.. got 2 hour.. many ppl use 1 hour to slp.. my volleyball teacher don let mi slp siax.. wao lao.. den the last question 20 marks.. i din do at first.. den when i pack my things den saw.. heng ar.. den gina hohx.. careless ler.. din go the 20 marks de.. she sitll got time play with her watch ler.. if its mi.. my heart break ar.. hope i can pass lohx.. now also helping wenkun make her blog.. haha.. she beri ma fan ler... haix.. now still can contact with her much.. walk past her jux greet niax.. haix.. but she's still my bestest friend.. best of all.. =) tml got science ler... siao ar.. my lousiest sub.. haix.. haven start revising.. den after that.. still got mother tongue listening.. and we need to wait till those acad de finish first den can start the exam.. waste our time.. sianx.. i donno i do anithing wrong not.. but i kinda feel a bit guilty for not telling wad will happen.. haix.. but a promise her not to say le.. so cannot tell.. reallie so sorry =(

happie mother's day!!

2005-05-08T23:32:00.000-07:00

heex.. so long din update liaox.. jux change the skin.. nice? i like the songs very much ler.. haha.. start writing from ytd bahx.. ytd.. morning 9 woke up by jian huang to go play basketball at 338.. den mclin come down find me.. haha.. den he teach mi lay up and all those basketball things.. but i very stupid.. learn so long still donno.. he wanna vomit blood liaox.. haha.. den go kfc eat.. share lots of secrets.. haha.. this darling ar.. hope he happie happie de lohx.. den go back 338 play basketball.. awhile niax.. den go his house le.. he go slp.. i help him make his blog ler.. all my gong lao.. hahahaha... den 5 go 338.. play so long of basketball.. ytd very hyper.. so much chakara sia.. hehex.. den play till face like monkey's butt.. everybody say that.. until today still got a bit red ler... haha.. denthis morning.. 7.30am wake up.. wan go masiling cc play basketball de.. wait for rain to stop.. but din ler... wao lao.. hai wo din slp.. haix.. nbm.. den 2 go buy mother's day present.. den 3 go kfc.. den boon come find mi.. den study.. keep shoot him this dog.. ahha.. den go walk walk.. chat chat lohx.. after that.. i go celebrate mother's day.. for my grand ma de.. at 326.. actually should be having buffel at home de... donno why cancel.. sian.. nbm.. also very fun.. cox my cousins all age gap not big.. lamos lohx... so not bad lar... keep take photo.. den my cousin mother very wad de lohx.. spoiler.. shout at my cousin at 326.. so loud somomore.. fuck lar.. din gib face de lohx.. somemore shout at my sis and bro.. den i shout back her ler.. haha.. no manners.. haha.. den.. tml got history and maths exam.. donno how to pass ler.. siao liao lar.. haha.. thats all bahx.. take care friends.. miss eu..

my volleyball team is back again!!

2005-04-23T22:33:00.000-07:00

hahax.. i sho happie siax... my volleyball team finally no problem le.. feel so relax.. haha.. that time go chalet.. so happpie.. got 1 more aiai liaox.. haha.. but now more tanned le.. sunburn also.. so long din play basketball.. jux now go play.. damn lousy lohx.. mux train hard le.. thiis few days.. mclin very sad.. i hope he will be happie again.. and those ite friends in his skool sux lohx.. no common sense... idiotic!! heex.. den today saw mclin that kinda expression.. i also feel like crying liaox.. den guoxiang sprain his leg.. but he stiill insist to play basketball.. jux hope he's okae lohx.. haix.. when will mclin be happie again? heex.. hope i can be a help for him bahx.. haix.. donno why.. become liddat.. i think i am irritating to him.. now trying not to get so close to him le.. don wanna any misunderstanding.. he will be happie without me.. and will be very happie.. saw his smile everyday le.. feels content le lohx.. at least he's happie..

i am not happy`unhappy`

2005-04-15T04:15:00.000-07:00

haix.. so many things happen... many many.. one after another.. i am going crazy.. one come.. i forget le.. another one come.. follow by another.. haix.. wad should i do.. nobody understands.. how.. today cry... got oral somemore.. think score very badly.. cox the teacher cannot hear wad i say..and my eyes hurt.. y? heaven is so unfair.. my life is in a mess.. who can help mi pack? nobody except him.. but.. he cant.. really feel like losing my memory and start everything all over again.. can i? volleyball.. volleyball.. volleyball.. why? i love volleyball so much.. but volleyball hurts mi so much.. nothing is gonna be perfect to me.. nothing at all.. we are best friends.. after so long.. haix.. eu happie will do.. don feel like writing le.. eyes beri pain liaox.. take care friends..

i am here to update again!!

2005-03-29T19:48:00.000-08:00

heex.. harlow.. so long din update le.. finally got time le.. hahax.. mi now.. same samee lohx... last week fall sick.. cox of mclin lohx... he sick mahx.. den we share this and that.. den very good ler.. i 3 days no go skool.. tuesday,wednesday and thursday.. den friday is good friend.. sat and sun no need go skool.. den last week i go 1 day niax.. woot.. den donno since when.. everyday at 338 play basketball.. with mclin, boon and guoxiang they all.. fun siax... hmm.. miss lots of lesson le ler... mux catch up.. so now will stay at home study bahx.. or play comp? donno.. todae got training.. sho tired.. den when i reach 338... those boys so bad.. keep gan mi go home.. keep say bye bye.. like see till me very sian like that.. lolx.. nbm.. they don wish to see me den suan liaox lohx... eh.. todae wenzhong tio caught in skool, beside my class de toilet SMOKING.. lolx.. i think smoking is childish ler... but wad i wanna tell him is... "eu promise de things.. eu broke it times and times.. eu say will change.. no matter how cold we are now.. but i hope eu are a REAL man that wont break promises.. i help eu cox i still treat eu as a fred and i feel guilty.. i hope eu will change for the sake of ur friends.." hmm.. hope he will be able to see my blog bahx.. haha.. mclin now hohx... famous liaox lohx.. stupid "darling" lohx.. those fuchun girls see him in wad huhx? weird ler.. nbm.. haha.. jux now guoxiang see my file.. den make my file got scatch siax!! nbm la.. boon like sick ler... like i hai ta de ler... eh.. sorry arx.. take care.. drink more water and sleep early bahx.. if not..i will see the ugly panda again.. hahax.. for that stupid hong bao neh.. donno where he is also.. like superman.. fly here and there... in skool.. actully i feel ok lar... i smile to my friends lohx.. cox i think like have a face that looks so sad.. and gib them see hohx.. like not really fair to them.. i wan my friends to be happie.. so no matter how sad i am.. i will try to smile to them and use my smile to cheer them up.. now mi, siming, fann and kahmei.. quite ok le lohx.. jux hope siming will still hab a smile on her face.. and kahmei not so sad bahx.. cox no matter wad happens.. i will still by ur side!! thats all bahx..

'sstarss'

2005-01-30T04:14:00.000-08:00

hehex.. moi new blog.. nice ma? haha.. this few days.. beri busy... needa do this and that de.. got volleyball tournament somemore... next tuesday play with pungol.. if din win... we will out le.. but i got confident of moi team... hehex.. but this few days.. alot of things happen.. donno why also..lost moi ez-link card sia...die liao lar.. cant find ler... yesterday went to watch movie with siming, fann, kahmei, ginny,gina, wenzhong, jogina.. watch omen... the first part already scared tio mie liao.. but actuallie not that scary de lar... its all about past, future and present... bought a hi-card.. change number le.. 81432235.. don hab start with 9 de number lerz.. bo bian.. sms like no need money de ler... hahaz... now sho late le.. haben slp.. later still need go play badminton with wenkun they all..die liao lar.. thats all ba.. good night... =P